Rambling on.

Trapped in your own life by the circle of repeat-ion.
Same things over and over, just a different day.

They blend and hardly ever change.
It makes the time's pass almost unnoticeable, but at the same time unbearable.
The things around you, that you love, yet keep you trapped.
You can't seem to set yourself free or pull yourself loose.
You just want to pack your bag and walk.
Just for a break, a bit of change, something different...
You're tired of the blending and the unchanging.

My ex, Joe.
He doesn't like change, he despises it in fact.
He doesn't realize that people have to change to live, to survive.
It's necessary, needed, and eventually unpreventable.
He's changed, he probably doesn't realize it.
But I do, I've changed.
I know I've changed a lot over the years..
And I'll continue you to change, hopefully for the better.
Sure right now, I'm stuck in a rut.
Nothing seemingly is different from the past week, month, year.
But eventually, something's going to happen.
It just takes being able to survive the slow pace of it, being able to wait it out.

Then you once things differ from how they usually are, you have to be able to survive THAT change.
Life isn't easy and it's not meant to be.
One of my favorite sayings.
Life's a bitch because if it was easy, it'd be a slut.

It's not always easy to remember those things, but you've got to try and remind yourself.

You have to realize what you need to do to keep going, because other people can only do so much for you.
In the end, it's all you.
You.
Have to keep yourself going.
You.
Have to tell yourself to keep your head up and to stay strong.

No it's not easy, it never will be.
But it's not impossible to do.

It just takes doing it.
There is always going to be some type of bump in the road that makes you grit your teeth and wonder why there's a fucking rock in your way.
But you'll eventually figure it out and move on your way.

I might repeat, I might ramble, but sometimes that's what it takes.
You know?
Sometimes it takes reminding yourself or others than you can do it, you can get past it.
You can keep moving on.
It's hard, but do-able.
Don't give up just because you feel like there's no point.
Sure, there might not seem to be anything worth it right then.
But that's not your entire life, that's just then.

That moment, what about tomorrow?
A week, month, or year from now?
There's not telling where you could be then.