Tooomorroooowwww...

What will tomorrow bring?
Well, probably a bunch of shit.
Mr.A. is getting home and Mrs.Z. wants Mr.J. out on Sunday.

What kind of shit storm shall I see and complain about later I wonder?!
It'll be irritating and interesting to find out.

I've had a headache all fucking day and it's just not really going away.
Took Advil for it and everything, nothing seems to help it!
It'll go away sooner or later, but it'd be nice if it was sooner than later...

Headache's are irritating dickheads.

I don't think I have to go to the airport at least, terribly long boring ass drive...
I've been on that drive way too many times.

Feels like something's in my head and pounding away with a fucking sledge hammer, ffs....!

Anyway...

I have really no idea what to say right now.
Paul fucked up on his post just now though, kind of funny.

I'm in almost every thing he post <.<

He's such a noob.

My friend thinks I should make the Minecraft server I plan on starting a role-playing server.
He tossed out a few ideas and I jokingly mentioned a zombie apocalypse and his imagination just went into over drive.
Sending me 5-6 text at once that are all mixed up about ideas he has and such.
I mean yeah, cool idea..Zombie apocalypse, who doesn't like that?

Well, I suppose people who don't like zombies...But yeah...
Most people enjoy a good zombie, film and or game, story, blah blah blah.

I don't know, I might do it. But going from never having started a server before to starting and managing a role-playing-zombie-apocalypse-server.
Seems a bit much, hmm?
At least I think it does...
But he said he'd help, but still.
I might just start out survival, and then the friends I invite can help me build up a bit and then maybe we'll think about starting a zombie apocalypse.

I can't even really worry about any of that right now, got too much shit to worry about for the next few days..What with Mr.A. going to be home and having to deal with all the drama Mr.J. causes.
I wonder how Mr.A. is going to react when he gets home, especially after our last phone conversation and such.
Be quite interesting I suppose...

I don't know, just have to wait and see, like I said.

I'm planning on reading the Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien over the next few days.
Since I won't be able to get on my laptop and such, I have to keep myself entertained somehow.
Besides Liam said it was a good book so I might as well read it, I told him to read Clan of the Cavebears. The book series that I love and actually got me started on reading.
Started on that series when I was about 12-13.
Absolutely love it, I read it about 4-5 times a year. Bit much I know, but I just love it.
The story never gets old.

I'm so tired... didn't really sleep, psssh... what am I saying? I haven't been sleeping well for ages now, haha...
Oi this damn headache...

I really want something sweet... why is it whenever I want something sweet, we don't fucking have anything?!

Okay...time for my, make-myself-feel-better-ragetime!

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck and FUCK.

There, I feel a bit better.
I should go outside and scream fuck over and over.
Then I'd probably feel really good! Sense cursing is a proven pain reliever and such.
But that might offend the goody-goody perfectly Christian neighbors.

I am not in a very good mood if you can't tell, feeling like shit all day tends to do that to people, so yeeeeeaaaaahhhh....

Eurotrip just came on, such a stupid movie. But it's funny... in a very stupid way.

OH AND!
I learned something new from Liam yesterday!
There's a dance called Skankin'.
That just, it's hilarious.... I laughed at that for a while.
It's just so weird, I know I could never do the "skank."
The meaning of the word just makes the "dance" impossible for me.

I could and never want to try.
CAN YOU SKANK?!

I think I'm going to go raid the fridge or something... maybe find something good to eat, maybe grab some tea...something....

Hey you.

Yes you...
The one reading this post.
Did you know, you need to start a blog?!
Did ya?!

Well you do, and no it's not like writing a letter!
And it'd keep me up to date on what's up and then I can hear some of your thoughts?!
So yes...You need to start one, and I'm going to keep bugging you until you do :]

Sooo... Might as well get it over with, huh?! <3

Why?

I get asked that simple question a lot.
Why?
Just that one word can have a huge effect on things.
People ask themselves that question more than once.

I'm asking myself that question right now.
Why do I feel like this?
Why can't I stop it?
Why am I here?
Why am I asking myself why?

Yeah the question list goes on, and on, and on.

My friend said self criticism is the worst.
Yet I can't help but play the critic in my own movie.
Watching myself go through life, wondering what's around the corner or what's the next big plot in the story.

No way to really answer that, no way to fast forward.
Just kind of have to keep going through this slow paced part, and wonder how much longer it'll last.
Hoping a better action scene is up next, the drama gets old and so does the same scene over and over.

I found a song I really like today.
It keeps making me think about things though, well it's probably not really the song. It's just the timing.
Stressed out, more than usual lately.
Yeah I shouldn't be stressing, or worrying. But how do I quit?
Mr.A. is getting home on Thursday, and Mr.J. and Mrs.Zill are still uptight and prickly.
Can't fix everything, but I can at least help keep things a bit calmer and keep it from escalating.

Wondering how the rest of the year will play out, and what the new year will bring.
Mr.J. is only supposed to be here for 2weeks.
It'll be a much shorter time if he keeps pulling those stupid ass moves.

He keeps talking about how the world is fucked up, and we have no idea.
He's wrong there.
I know more than he thinks.
He complains about no one knowing him, but he automatically assumes he knows everyone.
How's he going to get anywhere like that?

He acts like he's the only one who's ever dealt with tough shit and he complains and whines.
And then when someone tries to help or talk to him, he spits in their face.
Don't complain and act like you want help if you're going to do that.
That's just being an ignorant dumb ass.

But oh well, it's not my problem.
Oh wait... it kind of is, since you're in my house.
I don't appreciate how you act towards Mrs.Z.
You come to us for help and then try to be a douche and say get the fuck off, I don't need help?
Bullshit, you've got some fucking nerve.
Hopefully you learn to watch your step, because you're on a thin line.
You'd hate to fall.

Nothing I can do if you step wrong and fall off into the jaws of Mr.Ass.

Besides you don't need "help."
So why should I even care?

I can't help but wonder how many other people out there are like you, more than likely.
It's a lot more than you think.

You probably think I don't remember all the shit I've been through, especially in my younger years.
That's where you'd be wrong... So don't just tread lightly in front of Mr.A. and Mrs.Z.
Because I do remember, and I know I'll never forget.

Which is kind of shitty, because most of the time it sucks to remember.

Well, I'm hungry...
Time for some ramen and tea.