Apparently a Mermaid

I got called a Mermaid today.

First time that's happened...
But I guess it's going to happen when I can't stop talking about how much I miss swimming.

Before we moved to where I live now, I used to swim every day.
For at least 5 hours if not more.
Sometimes I would swim from when the pool opened to when it closed.
(10:00am - 8:00pm)

So, if you cannot tell.
I love swimming.
Honestly, I love water in general.

When I swim, I feel amazingly relaxed and happy.
I've apparently always taken to water since I was younger.

I've heard countless stories involving water and myself.

I miss it so much!
There's no pool around that's close by, at least not that I've found yet.
And the lake is about 45 minutes away, and we don't go often.
We haven't gone this year and we only went 2-3 times last year.

Not. Enough. Swimming.

If I could I'd go swimming again every day, all day...
But alas...
For swimming,
You need water.

And I do not find it funny, when someone says to fill up the bathtub.
IT IS NOT THE SAME THING.

You can't swim in a bathtub.
Unless you're uber-rich and have a fuckton of money and can afford a really big bathtub.

I plan on making a dream pool one day, and I'll love it!
But it'll take a long time to find a place to put that pool and get money to build that pool.

Maybe I should just live by the sea.
But I don't enjoy hurricanes...
Maybe a lake, but normally lakes have a bunch of weirdos or rich folks around.
I don't enjoy either of those...

MAYBE...
I need to find myself a mystical secret lake with a waterfall.

Yeah.
I like that idea.

So until I get to go swimming I'll just continue to sadly think about swimming.

-Victoria

Learning to be Me

Why is it easier to write in a book that no one ever reads?
Because it’s easier to pretend you’re talking to someone than it is to actually spill out your soul to someone.
Talking about yourself, it’s a pain in the ass. Unless you’re one of those weird ass people who are obsessed with themselves and thinks everyone loves you, when instead they actually just get really fucking ticked off around you.
Explaining your thoughts, and feelings, it’s hard to open up and do that.
At least it is for me, I’ve been trying to learn how to just stop being an emotional wall.
People don’t understand why I am the way I am, and I can’t really explain it to them.

How do you explain something that they haven’t experienced or you’re not sure how to explain?
How can you tell them that you’re like this because of what others have done, so you learned how to protect yourself?
I’ve tried explaining before, and normally people just tell me the past is the past and that I need to stop worrying about people hurting me, or worrying about people being stupid.
They don’t understand.

Maybe that works for them, maybe they haven’t had a lot of people hurt them.
Forgive and forget they say, but some things you can’t forget and some things you can only partially forgive.
I guess I’m one of the people that will always remember, I’ve always been able to remember weird things or things I shouldn’t be able to remember I do.
Probably not a fantastic thing, but I can’t exactly help it.
I don’t automatically expect everyone to hurt me, be stupid, or just an ass.
But I can’t help be wary.
Let’s just say it’s a survival thing, because if I was always a bundle of joy expecting the best out of everyone, then I would’ve been crushed a long time ago.
Hell, maybe some of me was and that’s why I am who I am now.
But I don’t regret it, maybe some small parts.

At least it’s helping me become the person I’m hopefully supposed to be.
Maybe, just who I want to be.

-Victoria

Dear.Auto-Correct, please stop hating.

You know I find Auto-Corrections hilarious. (at least when it's happening to other people...)
When it happens to me it's just a slight annoyance, but when I see pictures of other peoples' mistakes, I wonder...

 I wonder how people let this kind of stuff happen?
I normally re-read my text before I send to make sure I've spelled everything correctly and such. (I don't like misspelling...)

So how do people miss that?!----->    




I can understand not having a compulsion need to check your spelling, but how do you not notice your phone decided to fuck you over with "douching" instead of "coughing."


I've seen so many photos of auto-correction failings, on lolphotos.net, damnlol.com, damnyouautocorrect.com
Blah...
Blah...
Blah...

But it makes me laugh... so does that make me a bad person at laughing at other peoples misfortune with the bitch known as auto-correct?

I think someone uses the world "anal" more than they use the word "nap"...

I don't think Amy minded that he was going to be 20 minutes hard late.



                                                 
                                        I'm still laughing.... haha!


So anyway!
This post was pretty much pointless...
I wanted to do something though.... so why not make myself laugh?!

Which I succeeded at doing, so go me.