Titles are for Noobs

So what have I been doing?

What it's only been....Less than a month by about 5 days that I posted.

Not only have I been busy and not sleeping well and having weird ass dreams where things try to kill me, but I've had writers block!
How shitty is that?

But oh well, I'm here now.

So I updated my "Stuff about Me" because frankly what I first had there was shit.
I can already tell I'll end up editing it again sometime, but that's not what we're on about.

What have I been doing lately?

I've been feeling like shit.
I can't tell if my body just decides that sleep is unimportant or maybe Mr.Sandman hates me.

Besides if either Mr.Sand or I should be hating at the moment it should be ME.
Not sleeping well is bad enough but then having shit dreams when you do sleep, that's like a completely dickish move.

So fuck you, Mr.Sandman.


Anyway....
If you can't tell not sleeping well has a slight moodyish effect on me, it kind of flips my bitch switch on. So I feel bad for the poor soul that decides to piss me off and I go all smart ass bitch ninja on his/her ass.

I haven't written in any of my "novels" in days now because I haven't known what to write and I've been so tired I just haven't really felt like writing.
At the moment I just feel like screaming or flinging myself into bed into my multitude of pillows and trying to sleep.
But I'm almost positive as soon as I get INTO bed that I will not be even the tinny tiniest bit tired.

Does this happen often?
Yes it does... I'll get into bed and be tired as hell and then I get comfortable and laid down and I'm wide awake and staring at the ceiling.
Go me.

Sooo anyway....
Fuck all for now, I'm hungry.

TimeToEat

Thinking too much? Who me? Naah.

Damn right.

Okay, so maybe I think too much...
Fine I do think too much, waaay too much.
I worry and over-think pretty much everything, and fuck me does it get annoying.

Sooo over the past weekend we went to my Aunt's (long, long ass drive) we left Saturday morning. Stayed until Monday.
Saw The Vow and The Grey.
Both were interestting movies...The Grey we saw first and it was a long movie. Longer than we all expected, some of the scenes made everyone jump but then we'd laugh at ourselves.
The ending was a bit disappointing, I think it could have ended a bit better but oh well, it wasn't my movie.
The Vow, it was a very sweet story, if you didn't know it was based on true events and all that so that made it all the sadder and sweeter.
Romance movies aren't really my thing though, I mean sometimes they're really good but then other times they just piss me off.
But that was one I didn't mind all too much.

But one thing I'm glad about The Vow was the fact that it got Mrs.B. seriously thinking about sending me to an Art Institute, so yay!
But........
The closest A.I. is about two hours away.
And the city is kind of dangerous, I mean what place isn't? But that place especially, I mean Houston is... a one of a kind place I suppose.
I'm sure I'll be fine, but like I said I think too much and worry too much.
So what am I doing?
Worrying and trying to over-analyze and think about every goddamn possibility, which is damn near impossible to do.
Obviously I'm trying to do it anyway, I just can't help it.

I need to relax butttttt...That's not happening.
I'm ready for shit to get going but I'm scared of things at the same time.
I'm not really scared to be on my own, but I am worried about failing.

Blah blah blah...On to something else.

I've been playing Skyrim a lot more, especially since Mr.A. has been gone.
I still love the graphics, the quests, I pretty much just love the game.
It was definitely worth the wait.
I haven't been playing Minecraft as much lately... I just haven't had any inspiration as to what I should do on the game.

I've been trying to get back into writing again, as you can see.

Haven't been sleeping well for a while now, I keep having odd dreams again but once I wake up they fade and then I'm not even really sure I had a dream.
But then I get glimpses and it becomes obvious that I did.
I wish I could remember them better though, the whole foggy faces and people either talking to me or trying to find me is kind of creepy.

I don't know... I just haven't really been sure what to do lately.
Besides chores I've just been trying to keep myself occupied.
I'm still working on the Anita Blake vampire hunter novels, I'm on book sixteen I believe.
I've slowed down on reading them because of Skyrim and sometimes I just need a break from reading or it just doesn't strike me as appealing at the time.

I just feel really weird lately...

Early Valentines makeup postshit for the weeks of nothing

Okay...
So it's been a while, obviously.
I haven't written in a long time.

I've missed it, I've been busy... I've written in my journal a bit and a few odds and ends.
But I haven't written here...

I've been playing midwife, delivering kiddies...(that's a long story which will have to come some other time.)

I've also been dealing with Mr.A. a lottttt.
Since he was here longer than usual, did I mention he was possibly going to be staying home again for weeks at a time?
No?
Possibly?
Well now you know, and it's terrible..
He's gone right now and has been for about I suppose a week or so?
Which is great for me because my stress levels are much lower now...

But I guess a lot of shit has been going on I just haven't written it down enough.
So I need to get myself back into that, especially since it helps me clear my mind.

Anyway, Happy Early Valentines.

I'll try to fill in the weeks past later.