Doomsday or...?

My birthday, is coming up way too soon for my liking.
Normally I don't even really care that my birthday is coming up, but this one is different.
I'm stressing out a lot lately over it, I guess that's a bit stupid.
But I can't seem to help it.
I'm just so uncertain I suppose, not even sure how or what to do lately.
My birthday is already going to suck, and I know it...
Not just because I don't want it to happen so soon, but because I'll be spending over 4 hours in the car... Joy.
I guess I shouldn't complain it could be worse.. This won't be the worst one I've had.
Hopefully.
At least I shouldn't be going to the hospital, or something in that nature.
I've been told I worry too much.
But I guess no one's ever thought that maybe I have a reasons for all my worries. That things that happened to me through my life, are why I'm so mixed up, reserved, and worried.
Things happen to everyone, so I can't really complain.
But that doesn't mean it's easier to accept, and it can never be forgotten.
But it happened, that's that.
It's made me a stronger person in the end, confused and such, but at least it didn't mind fuck me like it should have.
Look at me, getting off topic again...
Anyway...
Happy birthday to me soon. 
At least let's hope it's a happy day...